awkward: causing or feeling uneasy embarrassment or inconvenience.
So close your eyes and imagine this – You’re at a social event, having a few of your favourite drinks to relax your introverted mind and ‘wham bam thank you mam’, you’ve said something that now sizzles in your head playing over and over till it drives you mad.
I’m quite sure I’m not the only one that this has happened to either. It seems these moments happen frequently, enough to think perhaps I just shouldn’t say anything at all, ever. Concluding never go to any social gatherings as I’m a danger to not only myself but others as well. I know – a bit over the top I hear you say.
I realise and understand this is a product of my mind and my terrible way of overthinking every situation but seriously, how does one let the mind move past this and onto more productive things? An awkward conversation I had almost 20 years ago at a wedding I attended and another at a family reunion is still so fresh in my memory.
How this story ends
What we must remember is that in the end, it really doesn’t matter. Conversations are long forgotten by others, and though they stay as clear as day in yours, you have other matters to attune yourself to that are far more important. If an apology is required, just do it quickly and soon after the event and like a plaster being ripped off, it really will only hurt for a moment.
I think this may be how I’ll move past this. However, that moment won’t be until next week when I see them again. So I’m now stuck in my own head, mulling over what I should and shouldn’t have said for another few days. What a weekend this will be…